i braveheart.

OK. I'm not.

So here is what I need today...
I need to know your coping strategies.
Please and thank you.
I know that I read too much into things... Get my hopes up-- and this is so not coming from someone who is a routinely positive person (that would be me, negative Nelly (and not like Nelly Furtado or even Nelly who sang that Ride With Me (which I did so love) song)).

So tell me: what do you do?
What do you do when you really want something but you really *need* to push it out of your mind and function and not fixate on what every little thing could mean, because it breaks your heart and leaves you crying in the bathroom when it doesn't mean what you want? How do you keep from becoming fatalistic and wanting to just throw in the towel and say, forget it?

Don't give me pity (please).
Just tell me how to get something out of my mind (again, please).
xoxoxoxo.

so this is april...

How is it April?
How have I already been to and back from my sisser's?!?!
... that just isn't right.
I'm ready to pack up and move to Ohio.
I miss them far too much again already.... I miss just hanging out and not having Jared grow taller than me between visits.
My funny boys.
Good food.
My parents.
Two crazy dogs (Max went to Le Kennel).
Colin and Mikey sharing food.
And time with the greatest sister in the world....
... and they have the darlingest new house that I love.
... and it was just all around mad fun.
Sigh.
Such a good Easter.

... even with......
18 inches of snow.
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
<-------- this was our drive about 15 miles away from e's....
(and one of the last pictures my camera took and didn't eat..... goodbye, sweet rebel.........)
... and then it just kept snowing
and kept snowing
and kept snowing.
It stopped Sunday afternoon.
I went out and had a snowball fight with the boylies. Turns out a make an expert snow fort, even being the Southerner that I am now. It was all fun and games until Jack got a few too many snowballs in the face.
My poor boots still weren't dry when we left on Monday.

And now I miss them all.
So stinking much.
Sigh.
xoxoox,
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